quarterlifecrisis
I think I have a quarterlifecrisis.
This is exactly how I feel. I think I have to change school. It´s a year now since I don´t really like what I´m doing. And very often when I´m at school, I feel like I don´t belong here. Those people (other students) are all so different from who I am. I just need to do something else. But it´s quite hard to “give up”. I studied for 4 semesters now, and I don´t think it´s good to have something unfinished in your resume.
But I´m just so damn unhappy with what I´m doing now. Yesterday I cried for like an hour. I think it´s time to do something else…
In retrospective now I think it was wrong to fill out the university application while I was still in Chicago. I wasn´t really doing some serious thinking about it. I just looked through it for 5 minutes and then took the subject that my family wanted me to study and not what I wanted to. To be honest I think I didn´t really know what to do and still don´t…
mood: unhappy
music: Kaya playing guitar